Recently, I'm having a hard time resting. Even when I get home from work and have nothing left on the schedule for the day, I find myself working. Or my mind won't shut down. Or I remember something I forgot that day. It's exhausting. It's also not typical of me.
I'm usually pretty great at relaxing. Watch 3 hours of Parks and Rec? OK! Read an entire book in one weekend? Duh! Sleep in til 10 am on a Saturday? Done. But not these days.
And it's not a good thing. It means that when I'm actually at work, I'm tired. I took a few high school girls down to Westport this afternoon to get tea and shop and I was so tired. I tried to be fun and engaging and hopefully I succeeded most of the time, but I don't want to have to try at that. I love those girls. That part of my job is my absolute favorite and I squandered it today, internally anyway.
I've got to find a better way. I need to put my trust in Jesus. To rest in His promise that He loves me every day, all day, the same. He loves me if I forget to send an e-mail to a parent. He loves me if I don't get everything done in a day. He loves me in my confusion and in my anxiety. He loves me when I'm not trusting Him.
John 14:27: "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid."
Peace.
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